Nothing feels better than losing weight.
Nothing tastes better than losing weight.
Nothing rewards more than meeting this goal.
You can do it.
In the meantime I shall write it on my bathroom mirror and remind myself daily.
I find it fascinating that I have so much self discipline when it comes to not eating foods which contain gluten. I can sit at a table with people eating cake which is made on flour, and there is no hesitation, no inner debate, no temptation... no matter how good it looks. I simply don't eat it. Its not a question... I just don't. Yet if the cake was gluten free I would find it almost impossible to resist.
I don't die from eating gluten. I would feel slightly unwell... but really, I would be ok. Yet I have total self discipline in this goal -the goal of avoiding feeling unwell from eating gluten. This is the will-power, the self discipline, the commitment that I need to harness towards avoiding feeling fat from eating unhealthily. I could get away with little bits of cheating with gluten, but I don't try. And so I need to simply flick another switch in my head - like the one that is set to "no gluten" - and set myself to "no fattening foods" and "no sugar". I did it while I had gestational diabetes... I complained about it but I did it. And I achieved my goal - I got my insulin levels under control and had a healthy baby. It ties in with the people pleasing aspect of me I think... in that I will inconvenience others and I will stand up to not pleasing my desires if there is an external reason which is beyond my choice - like gluten intollerance or diabetes... but I won't do it just because its my own goal. Sounds like a self respect issue, doesn't it?.... and so I plow on... searching through the mirky depths of my own mind to unravel the self limiting beliefs and self sabotaging patterns.
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