accomplishment

so tonight marks a significant achievement in my life...
tonight I finished a huge consultancy project I have been working on for the last two years.
I say "working on" loosely - in reality I have worked on it in bursts over the last two years, bursts interspersed between periods of non-active work guilt.  Ever since I have been back in Australia there has been a little voice echoing at varying volumes in the back of my mind...and the voice said "you should be working on your policies project"... every evening that I spent socialising, watching telly, living life...the little voice echoed dismally in the back ground.  Every weekend that passed in a blur of activity that did not involve hours spent at a hot computer churning out pages of procedures had, as its underlying silently scolding theme...the voice of guilt.
And now... the guilt can retire.  I can be free of it.  I can choose how I spend my time with gay abandon.
OH JOY!