So I missed a day... I missed a day because I have been struggling a bit. I could have forced something, but my heart wasn't it in. I go up and down at the moment and I have been on a bit of a down slope. I have been thinking about my future - about the next step after this step. I have been trying to focus on a goal, to have a sense of what I am working towards...and, for the life of me, I can't see a thing. Its all fog. I know I won't stay here much longer than another year (which is, lets face it, quite a long time) but I cannot see beyond here. And that makes me feel disconnected, like I am standing at the top of a cliff... Its distractingly disconcerting.
And then I found this quote. And it reminded me... I am so busy worrying about what comes next that I am not here. I am not engaged. I am not present. I am also not achieving what I need to do, and I am not fully experiencing the now.
So I remind myself to stop, breath, be here.
When I am present I am engaged with life.
When I am engaged with life I am able to engage with others in a genuine and present way.
When I am present I am more able to be authentic, real, beautiful on the inside.
So...back to being present in the now.
